Productive or Procrastinating

Reflecting on the motivations behind my current actions

Published on: 2/4/2024

Beautiful landscape view of a meadow with a mountain off in the distance and a sliver of the moon in the sky.

I’ve had this worry that AI is going to make my skills negligible, or at least that I won’t be able to keep up with developments in AI–particularly commercial AI–and thus will be even more powerless than I already am. But I just had the realization that all of this effort I’m putting into learning how to code is, at least partly, coming from my desire to not have to work with a developer in order to build a website. Developing this blog is a creative outlet, but it also seems to be driven by my desire to not be dependent on others in order to build and publish websites.

I’ve been telling myself that the culmination of a lot of this work will be developing expertise and confidence that will enable me to successfully purchase, grow, and monetize existing websites. Or to also quickly stand up a new website that I can quickly monetize to profitability. But maybe it’s all just a distraction from doing the more difficult work of putting myself out there and risking real failure.

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